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Hi, how are you?!!!

Hmmmm, the truth will be a different publication, I started this drawing last night and finished it this morning, maybe I did it because I wanted to express a little what was happening to me, I have a little depression. I felt very bad in the last few days and I was holding it until I couldn't take it anymore and the bomb exploded, as far as art is concerned and I think that all the effort is for nothing, I felt tired, maybe annoying. Life puts me so many tests at every moment and I think it is a bit unfair [not to say enough], for so many things that happen around me, my tears did not hesitate to fall for a long time and while I was doing it more I thought about everything that .

But after a talk with who I consider is like a guardian angel, of those who advise you that things happen but you have to overcome them. If you think life is unfair, no, don't think about it! Just focus on improving what you do. I think I should fill myself with positive energy, surround myself more with the people who add and not those who take away, free my mind.

The example of that, is my first exhibition that I did in my city, the truth is that it has been one of those days where you forget everything bad and where you are filled with those desire to continue. To be honest, nobody knows me, nor do my neighbors know that I draw. What I have done only Steemit users and some of the closest relatives have seen, was very very hidden. Yesterday I was in an incredible exhibition yesterday I had the pleasure of meeting incredible artists from my city and today they inaugurated my exhibition and what they saw seemed good to those artists who have many more years of experience. I'm not full of ego or anything like that [I don't think I'm the last lemonade of the same either] but I think I feel good knowing that what I did liked those who were present.

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Maybe for all that this image in the morning which made me cry enough to make river lol, in the afternoon it doesn't have the same weight, that things happen and that my mind should be healthier .. I don't know if the People read this and the truth is that my blog is about art, not writing, but I just wanted to let off steam.



MATERIALS USED:

Laptop
Photoshop
Bamboo Tablet



See you soon dear community. 😜

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I'm fine! 💜

Una maravilla de arte, como siempre!

Tu dibujo y escrito me recuerdan a hace unos pocos años atrás, yo también hice un dibujo parecido para "plasmar mis sentimientos e intentar dejarlos en el papel" por así decirlo, me sentia muy mal, no tenía amigos, me pasaba el tiempo solo, mi familia no sabía nada y yo siempre los veia como alejados de mi, les gustaban otras cosas que a mi no, disfrutaban de todo juntos y yo quedaba apartado. Cada noche pensaba en lo pequeño que yo era en el mundo y que a pesar de que el universo es enorme no tenía ningún sitio al que "huir" y vivir en paz, pensaba también en la muerte, no podía dormir, me hartaba de llorar.

Todo aquello hizo que una noche sintiera que me faltara el aire, no podía respirar. Traté de relajarme, pero aquello duró toda la noche. Al día siguiente no se lo conté a nadie, me sentía un poco mejor, pero al llegar la noche me pasó lo mismo. Oculté el problema durante días hasta que un día, de pronto me pasó eso delante de mi familia, al principio pensaron que era un mareo o una tontería, pero acabé en el médico de urgencia. Tras un par de veces, los médicos me dijeron que no me faltaba aire, era al contrario y lo que tenía era ansiedad.

Lo pasé mal, mis padres incluso no le dieron importancia. Tuve ansiedad durante 4 largos meses hasta que lo superé. ¿Cómo?, abriéndome más a la gente que quiero, deporte, entretenimiento y sobretodo mente positiva. De eso hace ya 5 años y nunca he vuelto a tener ataques de ansiedad.

Te cuento esto para que veas que no estás sola y tienes gente que te lee. Si quieres hablar sobre ello mencióname, te sentirás mejor.

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16.10.2019 23:29
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Me alegro que estés bien! Gracias por responderme, la verdad es que ha veces pienso que no me leen lol.

Muchas gracias por compartir esa historia conmigo, de cierta manera es muy inspirador. Se lo que es eso, es como si fuera el bicho raro en medio de todo, no se encuentra que hacer por que es como que no encajas en ningún lado. La verdad es que es grandioso que lo hayas superado y que no hayas vuelto a caer de nuevo.

Como dije arriba, me sentía cansada, es como si a un vaso le cayera una gota de agua cada tanto tiempo hasta que se bota, con tantas cosas que me suceden que cualquier persona, en momentos así seguro como tu puede pensar en la muerte, pero la verdad es que estoy trabajando en tratar de encontrar la luz al final del túnel, creo que debo creer mas en mi y en lo que tengo que hacer sin pensar de cierta manera en los demás, no olvidándome de todos , pero si no poner cuidado a esas personas toxicas que no aportan nada y que lo que hacen es mantener mi mente alejada de lo en verdad tengo que enfocarme.

Poder dibujar es grandioso porque todos pasamos por tantas cosas, no somos de hierro, no? Entonces podemos plasmar lo que sentimos, lo que queremos expresar y liberarnos..
Saludos! Espero Tengas una linda noche.

18.10.2019 21:35
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Igualmente, ten una buena noche @yanes94, te estaré leyendo cada vez que me salga algún post tuyo.

Lo has dicho tal como es, pero no es tan fácil, así que mucho ánimo. Eso no lo mencioné creo, dibujar también me ayudó.

18.10.2019 21:41
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Muchas gracias! aunque a veces no escribo mucho lol.
No es un camino fácil pero es bueno contar con el apoyo de los demás y mas si esa persona sabe que es lo que se siente.

Viva el arte!

18.10.2019 21:47
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17.10.2019 15:58
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Thank you! :)

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17.10.2019 16:40
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18.10.2019 18:04
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Very powerful drawing! You are very talented, thank you for sharing .. I can totally relate to what you wrote as well.. hopefully you'll feel better soon ;)

17.10.2019 17:30
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Thank you very much for watching what I did!
I think that at some point in life we ​​feel this way and we can do two things, finish sinking or be brave and move on to overcome that.

This is my moment, in which so many things are happening to me but then you are filled with other things and people that help you improve.

Thank you @anouk.nox, I hope you have wonderful days and if something happens to you you will overcome it.

18.10.2019 21:16
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I liked this piece, it has a lot energy. Art itself is a therapy, or at least it can help to portray what we feel and it's hard to say.
I like the contrast of the black colors and the whites, it is so well done.

17.10.2019 21:13
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Thank you very much for understanding what I wanted to express, I certainly agree with you, I think it is good to be able to draw since we have that window to express what we feel, with an image that many can understand what the artist wanted to capture or they will also see it from their own point of view which is also valid.

At first I wanted to do it with colors but I believe in black and white it was better because of the contrast as you say and because the drawing is darker so I didn't want to use the colors.

Thanks again!

18.10.2019 18:14
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;(

18.10.2019 18:08
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Hello @yanes94, thank you for sharing this creative work! We just stopped by to say that you've been upvoted by the @creativecrypto magazine. The Creative Crypto is all about art on the blockchain and learning from creatives like you. Looking forward to crossing paths again soon. Steem on!

20.10.2019 01:53
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Thanks again for choosing another of my jobs, I appreciate the support!!! ;)

20.10.2019 03:38
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