A letter to the guide of my life.


Dear Kitty,

It is good there are two of us and you know that it is the reason why you are never alone.
At 15 years old you make decisions many adults are not capable of. I always wonder why you are that strong, how come you are always right and see long before others what is really going on.
No one needs to wake you up. You see it clear, very clear although not a single soul believes you.
They call you naive, arrogant, haughty, too proud even hateful. You walk straight up, keep your head up in the sky and seldom speak a word.
You are definitely an old soul and that is why your friends are twenty years older and look like children to you.

It is hard to live in a white world if you are not one of them.
It is hard to stand for who you are, develop your own opinion, yourself, without any support. It is true, you had no childhood, were unwanted before you were even born but you know what?
The best thing about you is that you are a personality and never gave up on yourself. You believed in you not in what the others said or thought. That is what is scary to most people and the fact you never wanted to be a sheep in the cattle.

Do you remember what you decided at the age of 7? Once 15 you left. It was a brave thing to do and you not only did it for you! You hoped it would give the others a better life. They never thanked you for it but hated and haunted you.
Not much later you started a life of your own. You studied and worked.
Not a moment you are filled with hate or self-pity but you simply go on and make the best out of it.

Here we are now. It's 2020 and it was never planned you were still alive.
Any other person would have given up decades ago, died or was locked in forever. You only grew stronger and turned out to be my only hero and best friend. It is good to have you around. If times are tough I think of what you managed and everything turns out to be a piece of cake and works out just fine.

I will always love you, you are the best.
Kitty.

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17.01.2020 15:07
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Thank you very much. πŸ’•

17.01.2020 15:42
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@olivia08 how about you joining this contest?

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17.01.2020 16:01
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18.01.2020 14:10
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Thank you. πŸ˜˜πŸ’•

18.01.2020 17:56
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21.01.2020 10:41
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Hey Kitty! I love the way your letter to your younger self ends up being a comfort to you. Lovely touch, and it gives me the feeling that time is fluid, the then is here now. Nice job!

19.01.2020 16:39
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@owasco Thank you forctaking the time to read it. I think these kinds of letters/posts are not popular
My younger me is the one who did it all and proved it can be done. So my guide and rock and comfort.

Jappy day !trdo and πŸ’•Posted with ![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmbroYujK9LNd2s8zDKPUCADmseyJDuNbhwBPrrF7xM8FL/logo-comment.png)

22.01.2020 06:57
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Wow, such a straight forward, deep from the heart, forged in iron letter. Indeed, do not ever give up on yourself. You are what makes you, you. And you're pretty fantastic.

20.01.2020 14:30
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@wwwiebe Thank you for reading this. I gave up anyone wpuld or dared to.leave a commentIt was good to write it once. My younger me did the hard work, I have the benefits.
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22.01.2020 08:07
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Great to see confidence, love and encouragement to yourself Kitty. πŸ’•

21.01.2020 01:50
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15 was a big point in my life too, as I also left then. I came back, but things had definitely changed, and I had been the impetus of that change. I get where you're coming from.

21.01.2020 10:05
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@free-reign It is good to hear something changed after you came back. I never went back. If nothing would have changed and I would be dead now. I never regretted it, it is still one of the best things I did for me.

Thanks for your kind comment. I wish you.a great day. πŸ’•Posted with ![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmbroYujK9LNd2s8zDKPUCADmseyJDuNbhwBPrrF7xM8FL/logo-comment.png)

22.01.2020 08:37
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In my case, my dad was about to hit me with a tire iron. I grabbed it, took it from him, threw it on the ground and then walked off. The change came because he realized then that I could defend myself physically.

I wish you a great day too!

22.01.2020 08:48
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I don't think the contest was intended to evoke quite this type of response from people, but personally I'm glad it did. Though I never suffered the physical abuse, I left when I was 17 and never looked back. And here, today, we've all found a good group of like-minded people who we can be positive and forward looking with. So there's that!

22.01.2020 12:44
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We have in common a pivotal moment in in our lives, and it's the kind no one wants to hear about. For me, the thought is always there in the back of my mind, that things could've been better if the causes for my leaving had never occurred. I did get respect after that, and that is a positive.

Thanks for sharing your experience with making this decision.

22.01.2020 13:28
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@free-reign In my case I was beaten up, strangled in the worse way you can think out... I never did lift a hand but she knew I would leave and I never went back. If you can not kil the animal it is better to stay out of its way (but I regret I never did ad if we ever meet agai I will). ❀️Posted with ![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmbroYujK9LNd2s8zDKPUCADmseyJDuNbhwBPrrF7xM8FL/logo-comment.png)

24.01.2020 06:15
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I'm so sorry to hear what happened during your youth, @wakeupkitty. I'd suspected your wounds ran deeper than mine and this confirms it. I was lucky at 15, simply because I'd gained the physical strength to confront the abuser, and my attitude after that was one of power.

I can imagine how hard dealing with your situation was, and if it'd been me in your shoes, I'm sure I'd have done the same thing.

Keep moving forward. :)

24.01.2020 23:18
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@free-reign At that time I was already taller as those who abused me plus mentally I was a hundred times stronger. That was one of the reasons they tried to break me literally in other ways.
I could have easily crushed them with one hand but at that time religion was literally beaten into me although I had strong doubts.
Respect your parents, turn the other cheek and more of that bullshit.
Something changed as I heard the opposite of all those killing phrases is written in the Bible too.

I left and kicked out religion, church too. Since that moment my life only improved, extremely improved.

If people misbehave they should be raised and if words don't work the feeling part might help. If I had hit back hard it would not have come that far. I know they all fear me, even after all these years. I am the last witness alive.Posted with ![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmbroYujK9LNd2s8zDKPUCADmseyJDuNbhwBPrrF7xM8FL/logo-comment.png)

26.01.2020 06:38
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