I had a terrible night's rest.
Strange enough I didn't get used to it after all these years. All these years are over 55 years. Already as a kid, I hardly slept. Not only due to the illnesses and allergies I suffered from but my mother made life unsafe and hell to her children.
You hope (I never pray) for better days once living on your own but that seldom works out. The soul needs time to heal which can take longer than just one lifetime. Souls and minds do not care about time. Time is an invention of humans. Human time has nothing to do with Nature's time or personal biorhythm.
The bus-kid and I had herring for breakfast. It was over it's expiry date yesterday. I nearly choked in it as I tried to swallow the piece (without the bread for your information).
You never get used to being ill.
It's cheap talk of doctors "get used to it", " live with it". In reality, it's eating you, taking all your energy away.
I consider myself very lucky these days. There's no longer the need to live by other people's rules, be productive, get out of bed at 4 am. I am happy I am my own boss and the rush is gone. I owe no one anything and do no longer need to sit straight, keeping up appearances - which I am bad at -.
This morning I came out of bed sneezing, my head stuffed because I wanted to clean my room.
I opened the old windows and let the air blow inside. The house I live in is old and needs to breathe just like me. The walls aren't made of stone but sand. It took me some hours to clean up, wash the curtains, do the floor and collect everything I no longer need. One day I will take it to the containers. For now, a part of the task is done and I am satisfied although I doubt it will guarantee me a better rest tonight.
Published today (April 5, 2020)
- Bedroom view
- 040420 - It's still The Big Bang Theory
A freewrite about a lamp, helicopter and bird.
Published yesterday (Saturday, April 4, 2020)
- Nature's bug
I posted this with Appics (wrong photo this one is better) and exited it with palnet and copy-paste into Steemit, Weku, and Peakd.
- Wettbewerb/Concurso "Looking Back/Look Forward 2.43"
I scheduled this post with Steempeak and it didn't publish it although it said it did. This means Steempeak is no longer a trustworthy option.
- A lockdown is good for me-time.
@ecotrain's weekly asked question. To be honest I do not understand what people seem to suffer from or are this the next fear we talk into each other's head?
- I am still a girl.
A freewrite about this girl's stuff.
- ANNOUNCEMENT winner/Gewinner "Looking back/Look forward 2.42"
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