So for the last week a house member has been going through some mental health issues of her own, decided to go for a nice long walk and talk to her about what's going on. See, she wants to end her life... Something inside her wants to grow faster then she is already, something wants to end all of this. I let my feelings be known on this game of Life, how sometimes we're ahead and sometimes behind, but there is always more to learn and experience,...I touched on how when we are going all we want is to hit fast forward and jump 10+ years until we are an adult, but as adults we wish we could turn back the clock and slow it all down.. somewhere between the two being a sweet spot. That closing her eyes, no matter where she is, and finding her breathe may be the easiest thing for her crippling stress and anxiety. We all want to fit in, it's really about how we channel our boredom or loneliness into something productive, a passion project or otherwise. That depression is life, and to just say fuck it, embrace it, and play with it, knowing one day the toy of depression will get boring and we can move to the next bit. That we aren't always going to have someone else to ask for help, and ask instead how we can do for ourselves what we want others to do, getting past the feelings of entitlement and the privilege of having someone there.... Go it alone.
Be the mantis, observe