I keep typing up gigantic paragraphs of goodbyeness and deleting them. I have been trying to write this for days now. So I am going to make it short and simple and be on my way.
It’s been fun, meaningful.. enlightening, educational.. all the feels. But now it’s too much of the opposite..it’s too serious. Too much drama, always it’s something. It’s first world problems. Drama. Drama. Drama. No,thanks. I have enough of that in “real life.”
I don’t need that, nor want it. I am so tired of thinking about unpleasant things. Im tired of writing a heartfelt post and seeing downvotes on it. I can write my thoughts down on paper and not worry. I’ve been doing that again.
I uninstalled discord 2 and a half weeks ago. And I will be honest with you, I feel that a weight has been lifted. It’s amazing how heavy things had gotten there.
If anyone sent me a discord message since 2 weeks ago, then I didn’t get it. And I won’t likely ever get it. If I open discord back up, there could be something there which would suck me back in. I can’t do it. Not for a very long time.
I’m at http://YouTube.com/serenamatthews if you want to stay in touch. I don’t check it every day though.
I send love to all of you. I’d start listing names but then I’d be leaving people out.
So.. goodbye forever, as I usually say. To my @helpie family, PAL, SGL.. I apologize not to send a more personal goodbye. I will miss you. I love you guys. I legitimately do.
But I must mention one person. To @meno, my dear friend.. the one who brought me into helpie, (luring me with Pris) and into discord.. and into your heart, I think... I love you and I miss you. Helpie was never the same after you left, and neither was I.
Also, to the person who called me a fairweather friend, blocked me, and said that I live on an island of mentally stunted dinosaurs... or something like that... you were the last straw on my proverbial camel’s back. Those and the other words you said to me were , quite frankly, cruel.
But.. thank for that, for now I am fully and truly motivated to fly away from this beautiful, mysterious, heartbreaking, unimaginably wondrous sea... and now I can breathe.
This is me breathing.
I leave for all of you the best picture I ever took of my dear friend, the moon.