in the last weeks I was relatively inactive because I have to fight a ...
... lot privately. It is very important that you always pay attention to your inner Yin & Yang.
My Yin & Yang is definitely out of balance. I have dreams and goals like everyone else and yet I am on this path privately as good as all alone.
I have no people around me who encourage me or advise me. You need this energy from the outside. It is also called Extrinsic Motivation. Of course I do not give up because my faith in myself is damn big. Nevertheless I slowly start to doubt myself.