I am not really sure, but that moment is coming closer. Let me first say that I am in a dark mood. This comes from too much real life drama (luckily nothing too serious but still a pain in the ass and sometimes to keep the brain doing overtime) and a lack of sleep. Not necessarily related to the real life drama! During those moments people do look at things going on their life with a different perspective.
And that is what I also did with steem!
I guess it is honest to say that I am not the best writer or blogger in the world! While I appear to be a great communicator with spoken language, lots of this quality gets lost when I do need to put things on paper. I do know that and I do acknowledge that! I do think that my writing qualities did approve but it is up to others to decide if the quality is above, on or under par! But I do put in almost all my post my heart and soul!
I have been writing almost daily since I did actively start on the steem blockchain in January 2018. This post will be number 859! In the meantime I did find time to write 9806 comments. Most of them genuine and straight from the heart!
But from time to time you need to ask if it is all worth it! And at the moment the answer is more a “no” than a “yes”. I don’t care much of the value of a post, I do more care about receiving comments.
An average post of mine (the main post of the day) would earn between $0.7 and $0.9. With the current 50/50 split, that is around 2.5 to 3 steem per day! But I do/did use the OCDC feature to increase the earning on my posts. They did had a great ROI! But this ROI is decreasing and sometimes negative. So I will not use it frequently anymore.
This all does put me with my feet back on the ground.
To be honest I was hoping that after HF21/22/23 I would be (re)discovered by some bigger account with a push in the back from time to time. Making it back worthwhile to put my heart and soul into my articles. I did have some support some time ago from an Orca, who was nice enough to put me on his autovoter list. Which did feel great and before posting a post, I knew that I would be rewarded for my efforts. But that of course also has another side. I did feel the urge to write a daily post, some of course with a lower quality then I would have wanted.
When I did became a Steem dolphin 2 months ago, I already decided that the world wouldn’t stop turning or the sun wouldn’t stop shinning if I didn’t post a post that day!
This decision did gave me some fresh energy. More or less the same as @exyle.
I still have the feeling that most of my post are of a decent enough quality, but if I do look around at lots of other post with in my opinion much lower quality and much bigger rewards, I do feel sad and maybe even pity! I do acknowledge that connections are vital on this platform and that one can be lucky to catch a big upvote, attract a bigger account and so on. I don’t like to call them upvote circles but more or less supporting friends or people you do appreciate. Connections are vital here on the Steem platform!
Smaller accounts now are trying to get in on time to upvote when a bigger account writes a post. These posts do have the most change to get above the linear reward curve. So they are more or less wasting their voting power on those, to get a nice curation reward in stead of finding great articles to vote on! (not referring to my shit posts. Mhh maybe my posts are just shit posts!)
I do really think that since HF21 the use of autovoters has increased. No evidence for this just a feeling. But one should use these to get a decent curation reward. Without you or more less the sitting duck!
I had to look way back to find an actifit post of myself on a day that I didn’t write a main post. And it was pity to see that these post do come very close income wise to a post in which I did invest time! So, why bother writing a decent post anymore.
But hey you were always telling that comments were important! Yes they are but then I am stumbling on a second problem I do have. I do/did belong to powerhousecreatives, which tries to reward the smaller bloggers on the block chain. It is a community with some rules. A side effect of these rules are that I do receive some comments. Some comments are just written because of the rules, so the question is do they count as a real genuine comment. Or is it more or less a genuine comment! That is one of the reasons that I decided to step down from the PHC community! Most those members will still appear on my feed and will get genuine comments and upvotes. I do want to thank @jaynie for the support she was giving me. I do consider here as one of the leading ladies of the Steem Blockchain! Sorry for making this decision!
So where do I stand now!
Not in the corner but also not in the middle of the ring. I will keep on blogging but the frequency will certainly drop and probably drop a lot! Maybe I have to think about writing about the daily Steemmonsters quest again on my main account in stead of my Steemmonster account! This would probably more rewarding than writing this with an account almost nobody follows. (See the connections are important) Than I could agree with the rewards my posts were getting.
If you do look at my posting value, only the two last posts are important. On the others the OCDB is used!
Do I regret all the effort and time I did spend on the steem blockchain! Hell no! I made some great friends. With some I do have a daily conversation on Discord! So no regret at all.
I am jealous on some other accounts with some great rewards. No, I am not. Probably they did something which did grant them the support!
But I am just not willing anymore to put day after day my heart and soul into steem without being noticed! My real life is just too precious for this!
So this no goodbye, but there will be just a lot less Hello’s from now on!
And maybe the value of my posts do reflect the quality of my posts but for sure they don’t reflect the time invested in them!
And no this decision is not directly related with HF21. I did see some daily posters quitting because of the HF but I have been posting when my rewards were higher but also a lot lower!
From now on I wont run my blog anymore as a business, so I will not consider my readers anymore as customers! I will just use the blog to write something if I want and the ones who are interesting into reading it and leaving a comments your are very much welcome!