The joints of my hands are deteriorating and I guess that it will be like my feet which are having pain when I walk. I am not very optimistic about my health because my Parathyroid glands just are relentless in giving out its destructive hormones that are very damaging to my bones.
The softest parts of the bones are affected which are at the ends of the straight bones that is why I am feeling the pain upon the joints.
They still are progressing and I am preparing for the worse about these things that ails me. I am just praying to god to take me away from this world than to suffer any further. It is just funny and unusual that despite all these health conditions and complications this tower still stands.
I do not know if I would be proud and boast my "achievement" because I feel that I am just a walking disappointment, failure, and frustration in this lifetime. So I think there is nothing to be proud of those.
Now there is an impending misery that I have to face and that is the disability that is brewing in my hand. It is hard to accept it but it is a reality of a nightmare that gain I have to fight and continue to live and suck it off.
It was just like yesterday that I can run and jump and touch the ceiling of our house but now it is as high as the clouds in the sky for me because my backbones had shrunk and caused me to lose my height and stature. My mother only is 4'11" but now I am smaller than her in both weight and height.
So it is another chapter in my life now that I will be getting another added disability. It is tough to realize that but I still have to face it and all I can do is to endure the blows as I can never doge it all into what is coming to me. May God help me.